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Sunday, June 18th, 2006

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Monday, July 25th, 2005

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Saturday, May 14th, 2005

Posted by:_just____me.
Time:11:27 am.
Hey,this is a new ed-community and we are looking for new members.It is already very active and im really looking forward to seeing you there :)
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Sunday, May 8th, 2005

Posted by:_just____me.
Time:3:17 pm.
Hey,this is a new community and we are looking for new members.It is already very active and im really looking forward to seeing you there :)
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Sunday, February 20th, 2005

Subject:Well....if no one else is going to rant...
Posted by:bellas_letum.
Time:3:32 pm.
The events of last were interesting, in their own sort of meshed together and blurred confusion.
The night began with me going to the Theatre for our last perfomance of Cabaret. Their were some mistakes, but that's to be expected...more or less. The stagemanager forgot a MAJOR one of her light cues and blamed it on me. She said that I knocked the cord which, is entirely bullshit but oh well. At least I don't have to work with her anymore. We had a good audience though and there kwas alot of laughing and such. SO, I'm happier that the last night of the run worked out so good.
After the show Bob the director asked me to do some more tech work for Measure by Measure and I agreed....He had originally wanted me to act but i regretfully explained that I am a terrible actress...even though I can sing. I'm kind of excited about that show becuase it's at the Lied which is significantly larger than The Haymarket Theatre and it a profit theatre company.

I Left the Cast Party significantly early becuase I'm not very good at socializing with people when I'm not doing my job. I came home and immmediatly made myself a drink becuase that's what I do. Somewhere between drink number three and four my ex Jordan came in. (this is where it gets difficult).
I live with one ex right now, whom I really consider more of a freind than an ex becuase we only dated for a week tops. Regardless of the extremely small amount of time that we spent together he think, He's in Love with me. I think he just wants to be in Love. Anyway I live at Jason's old house. Jordan comes over and ends up pulling Jason into the oppisite room for...probably about a half hour.

Now, I'm not a Stupid girl I KNOW they are talking about me so I walk over to the room and gently pull the door closed as if to say that I know. One or two drinks later we finally start Movie night. By this Point EVERYONE is pretty well gone.So, Jordan takes me to the side and says...in many many more words that he still love me very very much, that once apon a time he told me to be selfish with him and that that should not go away simply becuase we're not. I'm so confused right now. I messed things up with Jordan so much...I left him becuase I felt like he was too good for me.

I had other reasons of course. I told him that I needed to break up with him becuase I wanted to work through shit and yet, I don't know...I DO need to work through things. I was right in that but it's not why I did what I did and I feel regret...always regret. It never leaves me.
I talked to Jason this morning. I explained to him in the most blunt way possible that nothing will come of our relationship. He was going to "wait on me". i don't know if that's still what he's planning. I hope not.
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Thursday, February 17th, 2005

Subject:I'm the Maintainer...YAY!!! and this is my survey thingy!!! Sorry I slacked off on it!
Posted by:bellas_letum.
Time:2:01 pm.
GENERAL

Name: Janet
Age: 19
Sex: Female
Sexual orientation: Bi
Location: Lincoln, NE worlds most boring town

TYPICAL ED COMMUNITY SHIT

Hieght: 5’2”
Current Weight:114
High Weight: 143...I know it's disgusting
Low Weight: 92
Goal Weight: 90-92 but with more muscle than I had before
Ana or Mia? Ana
How long have you been ana/mia? When I was 9 I had a stress induced eating disorder where i couldn't physically keep my ffod down. Through an excess of mental counseling that problem was fixed. Then at 15 I became ana...which eventually transformed to mia
How many calories do you have a day? 800 Regularly, and 700 for 3 days before I fast
What's you excercise routine? It's non-existant right now. I try to bike on a daily basis though.

FIRSTS

First piercing/tattoo: My nose it came out when I was sleeping one night and grew shut. I hope to have it done again.
First credit card: HAHAHA funny....
First enemy: My brother
First concert: Garbage and Boys vs. Girls
First musician you remember hearing in your house: Garth Brooks?
First car: Plymouth Neon
First kiss: Micheal Donner 1st grade on the top of the tornado slide...on the lips but no tounge of course
First Love: Jacyn...Martin...Smith....how I loath is very existence

LASTS

Last vacation: Galvaston, MO....four years ago?
Last big car ride: To KC with my friend Lana
Last sorta-big car ride: To my friend Jason's dorm an hour and a half away
Last kiss: from Jason
Last library book: The Sirans of Titan (Kurt Vonnegut), One Hand Clapping (Anthony Burgess)
Last movie seen: Wishmaster 3
In the theatre: Meet the Fockers
Last food consumed: grilled chicken sandwhich plain..
Last phone call: The theatre?
Last CD played: Mixed cd
Last soda drank: Coke???Maybe?
Last time scolded: Two nights ago after the show
Last website visited: yahoo

SHORT ANSWER

I AM: Generally unstable, easily hurt, bitchy, morbidly amused and in serious need of unpartial counsel
I WANT: To feel happy with who I am and where my life is going
I HAVE: Doubt
I WISH: Life was easy
I HATE: Complication
I WONDER: How/If i will be scraping along to get by in 5 years.
I LOVE: the way the morning smells on a fall day, the rain against my durring a ride through town and the way the city feels when your walking at night
I ACHE: inside
I ALWAYS: Fuck Shit up
I AM NOT: Who they think I am
I DANCE: To feel soft and pretty
I SING: blues in the shower and I love it
I CRY: When no one is looking
I AM NOT ALWAYS: As strong as I wish I was
I WRITE: becuase I can
I BINGE: When I lose hope
I PURGE: Rarely if ever
I WIN: At Soul Calibur
I LOSE: At everything else
I CONFUSE: even myself
I NEED: direction
I SHOULD: stop trying to wish my life away

YES or NO

YOU KEEP A DIARY: 3
YOU LIKE TO COOK: I love to cook for other people. It makes me feeel good to make them feel good.
YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVEN'T SHARED WITH ANYONE: a few...

DO YOU...?

HAVE A CRUSH: No not anymore
WANT TO GET MARRIED: I think that people should wait till they are 45 or 50 o get married, focus on a life alone until then, and when retirement comes they have something to look forward to. In the mean time, I'll sew my oats...
GET MOTION SICKNESS: on sea yes
THINK YOU'RE A HEALTH FREAK: No I'dlike to be a health freak though. Eat less of all the crap that's bad for you becuase it is, after all, bad for you but I don't.
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: HAHAHA My mother's a psychotic whore and my father has talked to me three times in the last year and a half.
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: I Love them. I love the rain and the lightening and the glorious sound of thunder...I even like the harsh feeling of the wind on stormy nights.
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: RED!!! and not natural red red it's....hmmm...auburn red but when it's in the sun it's the color of ripe strawbewrries and I love it.
PERFORM (Dance, act, sing):I act and I sing...or at least I try
COMPETE IN SPORTS:yeah....right...sprots psha

FAVORITES

COLOR: Chartruse and burgandy
DAY: Saturday!
MONTH: March and September
MUSICAL ARTISTS: FAr Far too many but here's afew: Billie Holiday, Smile Empty Soul, Alice in Chains, Marylin Manson, Jane's Addiction, Pearl Jam, Bush, Veruca Salt, Fiona Apple, Ella Fitzgerald, Audioslave, Godhead, The Beatles, Queen, The Ramones, The Eagles, Heart, Duran Duran, The Cars, Deftones, (Old) Korn, Ozzy, and so on.
MUSICAL GENRE: I love variety. I have extreme soft spots for Blues, and alt rock but I like Oldies, Classic Rock, 80's Punk Techno and Metal as well. I do passionately hate Country and rap though
SONG(S): I put a Spell on you - Nina Simone, Alive- Pearl Jam, Minute of Decay- Marilyn Manson, and many more
MOVIE: A Clockwork Orange
TV SHOW: The oblongs
MODEL: Kate Moss/ Hiedi Klum
SEASON: Fall
DRINK: Coffee, Hot Green Tea or a Cosmo....depending greatly on the night

EITHER OR....

CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: I'm not into physical effection in a "Love" with a capital "L" kind of way. it makes me want to vomit. At least if it's me it does but if it's tow freinds I think it's cute. I think I was made to live ALONE.
FAST OR RESTRICT: I'd Rather Restrict on an almost fasting level...like 500 cals a day or less. Then I can still eat but when I'm done I don't try to eat everything in sight just becuase my fast is over.
REPUBLICAN, DEMOCRAT, OR THIRD PARTY: Green Party All the way
TEA, COFFEE, OR DIET POP: Coffee
BOXERS OR BRIEFS:Boxer Breifs
SPIT OF SWALLOW: If it's already in your mouth what's the point of spitting, really?

IN THE LAST DAY, HAVE YOU...

CRIED? Yes
BINGED: Yes
PURGED: Not yet...I'm getting to it...ads much as it disgusts me
EXCERCISED: not yet
HELPED SOMEONE? Yes
BOUGHT SOMETHING? Yes
GOTTEN SICK? No
GONE TO THE MOVIES?Nope
SAID 'i love you'?: Maybe to a friend in a freindly kind of way
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: nope
TALKED TO AN EX?: yes
MISSED AN EX? no
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? no
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: No
HUGGED SOMEONE?: yes
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND?: Nope
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Saturday, February 12th, 2005

Subject:Newbie x)
Posted by:els_anaisms.
Time:12:13 pm.
Mood: mellow.
Hey, I just joined. Seems like a nice comm. Love the layout <3

GENERAL

Name: Amanda
Age: 16
Sex: Female
Sexual orientation: straight, I guess.. Open for experimentation, though.
Location: Helsinki, Finland

TYPICAL ED COMMUNITY SHIT

Height: 5'4 (164 cm)
Current Weight: 110 lbs (50 kg)
High Weight: 125 lbs (57 kg)
Goal Weight: Short term, 105 lbs. Long term... We'll see.
Ana or Mia? ED-nos. Both ana and mia traits.
How long have you been ana/mia? I used to be a stress-eater, but about six months ago I started going the other direction.
How many calories do you have a day? Usually depends on whether or not I have to eat dinner, and what I had to eat for breakfast. Besides, I don't really count all that closely.
What's you excercise routine? I go riding once a week, and then I do as much as possible during the rest of the week. I'm quite lazy, though, so most of the time is spent beating myself up for not excercising enough.

FIRSTS

First piercing/tattoo: Only my ears. My parents are really anti-piercings/tattoos. I'd love a tongue ring, though. Besides it being totally cool, I'd have an excuse not to eat for a week.
First credit card: Don't have one!
First enemy: Some kid in day care, probably.. *laughter*
First concert: The first one I can really remember is Spice Girls back when I was in second grade.
First musician you remember hearing in your house: God, I dunno... The only music I can really remember from being little is my dad singing to me during bed time.
First car: Don't have a license, so...
First kiss: Drunk, at a party, not too long ago.
First Love: Haven't met it yet.

LASTS

Last vacation: About a week at our cottage during Christmas break.
Last big car ride: See answer above. (It's about 450 km, which is about 280 miles, according to the on-line calculator.)
Last sorta-big car ride: Ummm... Basically, the last time I sat in a car for more than an hour was that trip to the cottage.
Last kiss: See answer to first kiss (yeah, I get a lot of action... *rolls eyes*)
Last library book: Hmmm... Minna Canth's Työmiehen vaimo (translates to The Workman's Wife), a play I wrote a paper on for Finnish class.
Last movie seen: Mean Girls x) It's hilarious...
In the theatre: Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events
Last food consumed: Half an orange.
Last phone call: To my mom.
Last CD played: Marilyn Manson's Lest We Forget
Last soda drank: Pepsi Max (I'm basically addicted to the stuff)
Last time scolded: Umm... Can't really remember.
Last website visited: Aside from LJ? Checked my e-mail.

SHORT ANSWER

I AM: weird (and loving it)
I WANT: to be thin.
I HAVE: to be thin.
I WISH: I could be better at everything.
I HATE: myself for being imperfect.
I WONDER: if I'll ever learn to love myself.
I LOVE: books and music.
I ACHE: seldomly.
I ALWAYS: begin the day perfectly, but then end up bingeing and unable to purge.
I AM NOT: perfect. Yet.
I DANCE: when I feel like it.
I SING: along to good music.
I CRY: when I'm sad, stressed-out, angry, disappointed in myself, hurting...
I AM NOT ALWAYS: a good girl.
I WRITE: crappy, angsty wanna-be slash
I BINGE: on stuff I crave and can not resist (ice cream, chocolate, fresh bread)
I PURGE: preferably in my "own" way (I don't swallow it, I spit it out. Hence, no need to throw up, which I've tried but found really hard.)
I WIN: when I am able to say no.
I LOSE: a battle to food every once in a while, trying to keep up appearances.
I CONFUSE: myself.
I NEED: to get thinner.
I SHOULD: get a grip and start excersising more.

YES or NO

YOU KEEP A DIARY: Yes. Both online and "real life"
YOU LIKE TO COOK: Yes. I love baking.
YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVEN'T SHARED WITH ANYONE: No one in "real life" knows about my thing with food.

DO YOU...?

HAVE A CRUSH: Not currently, no. Unless you count the so-called celebrity crushes.
WANT TO GET MARRIED: I dunno. Maybe. Not high on my list of priorities.
GET MOTION SICKNESS: Sometimes. I hate it.
THINK YOU'RE A HEALTH FREAK: No.
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: Most of the time.
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: Hell yeah!
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: Black. Originally blonde.
PERFORM (Dance, act, sing): Not too often. At school parties. (Played guitar and was in a play in the Christmas party at our school.)
COMPETE IN SPORTS: No.

FAVORITES

COLOR: Black, white, silver, and blue. On some days, purple and red, too.
DAY: Tuesday and Saturday. I used to like Fridays, but the term changed and now I have a double lesson of Physics AND a Math lesson on Fridays at school, and I hate Math and Physics, so...
MONTH: November, 'cause it's my birthday, and June, 'cause it's the first month of the summer holidays.
MUSICAL ARTISTS: Ooh, there are many! Queen, Sex Pistols, Alice Cooper, Sisters of Mercy, Type O Negative, The Cure, Joy Division, Maija Vilkkumaa, Sonata Arctica, Nightwish, Marilyn Manson...
MUSICAL GENRE: Rock & metal. In some moods, classical.
SONG(S): Too many to be listed... Currently can't stop listening to Sonata Arctica's Draw Me.
MOVIE: The Lord of the Rings -trilogy. And Thirteen, Edward Scissorhands, Ocean's 11, Ocean's 12, and Interview With A Vampire.
TV SHOW: America's Next Top Model. They just started showing season 3 on Finnish tv. <3
MODEL: I love Elyse, from ANTM season 1. And Kate Moss is <3
SEASON: Fall is great. And summer I love, because I have two and a half months off school.
DRINK: Pepsi Max, unsweetened Earl Grey -tea and ice cold water.

EITHER OR....

CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: I dunno. Depends on the feeling.
FAST OR RESTRICT: Hmm... Fast. It's much easier to say totally no,´having just a little and then stopping can turn out suprisingly hard.
REPUBLICAN, DEMOCRAT, OR THIRD PARTY: Democrat.
TEA, COFFEE, OR DIET POP: Don't drink coffee. Diet pop.
BOXERS OR BRIEFS: Briefs.
SPIT OF SWALLOW: Spit!

IN THE LAST DAY, HAVE YOU...

CRIED? No.
BINGED: Yes.
PURGED: In a way, yes.
EXCERCISED: No. (I will, today.)
HELPED SOMEONE? Umm.. Not really.
BOUGHT SOMETHING? Yes.
GOTTEN SICK? No.
GONE TO THE MOVIES? No. Rented two, though.
SAID 'i love you'?: No.
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: No.
TALKED TO AN EX?: No. (I don't even HAVE an ex.)
MISSED AN EX? Nope.
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? Yes.
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: Nope.
HUGGED SOMEONE?: Nope.
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND?: What friends? I have loads of people I know and can talk to about everyday meaningless stuff, but I consider none of them true friends trustworthy enough for me to open up.
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