Sexual orientation: straight, I guess.. Open for experimentation, though.
Location: Helsinki, Finland
TYPICAL ED COMMUNITY SHIT
Height: 5'4 (164 cm)
Current Weight: 110 lbs (50 kg)
High Weight: 125 lbs (57 kg)
Goal Weight: Short term, 105 lbs. Long term... We'll see.
Ana or Mia? ED-nos. Both ana and mia traits.
How long have you been ana/mia? I used to be a stress-eater, but about six months ago I started going the other direction.
How many calories do you have a day? Usually depends on whether or not I have to eat dinner, and what I had to eat for breakfast. Besides, I don't really count all that closely.
What's you excercise routine? I go riding once a week, and then I do as much as possible during the rest of the week. I'm quite lazy, though, so most of the time is spent beating myself up for not excercising enough.
First piercing/tattoo: Only my ears. My parents are really anti-piercings/tattoos. I'd love a tongue ring, though. Besides it being totally cool, I'd have an excuse not to eat for a week.
First credit card: Don't have one!
First enemy: Some kid in day care, probably.. *laughter*
First concert: The first one I can really remember is Spice Girls back when I was in second grade.
First musician you remember hearing in your house: God, I dunno... The only music I can really remember from being little is my dad singing to me during bed time.
First car: Don't have a license, so...
First kiss: Drunk, at a party, not too long ago.
First Love: Haven't met it yet.
Last vacation: About a week at our cottage during Christmas break.
Last big car ride: See answer above. (It's about 450 km, which is about 280 miles, according to the on-line calculator.)
Last sorta-big car ride: Ummm... Basically, the last time I sat in a car for more than an hour was that trip to the cottage.
Last kiss: See answer to first kiss (yeah, I get a lot of action... *rolls eyes*)
Last library book: Hmmm... Minna Canth's Työmiehen vaimo (translates to The Workman's Wife), a play I wrote a paper on for Finnish class.
Last movie seen: Mean Girls x) It's hilarious...
In the theatre: Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events
Last food consumed: Half an orange.
Last phone call: To my mom.
Last CD played: Marilyn Manson's Lest We Forget
Last soda drank: Pepsi Max (I'm basically addicted to the stuff)
Last time scolded: Umm... Can't really remember.
Last website visited: Aside from LJ? Checked my e-mail.
I AM: weird (and loving it)
I WANT: to be thin.
I HAVE: to be thin.
I WISH: I could be better at everything.
I HATE: myself for being imperfect.
I WONDER: if I'll ever learn to love myself.
I LOVE: books and music.
I ACHE: seldomly.
I ALWAYS: begin the day perfectly, but then end up bingeing and unable to purge.
I AM NOT: perfect. Yet.
I DANCE: when I feel like it.
I SING: along to good music.
I CRY: when I'm sad, stressed-out, angry, disappointed in myself, hurting...
I AM NOT ALWAYS: a good girl.
I WRITE: crappy, angsty wanna-be slash
I BINGE: on stuff I crave and can not resist (ice cream, chocolate, fresh bread)
I PURGE: preferably in my "own" way (I don't swallow it, I spit it out. Hence, no need to throw up, which I've tried but found really hard.)
I WIN: when I am able to say no.
I LOSE: a battle to food every once in a while, trying to keep up appearances.
I CONFUSE: myself.
I NEED: to get thinner.
I SHOULD: get a grip and start excersising more.
YES or NO
YOU KEEP A DIARY: Yes. Both online and "real life"
YOU LIKE TO COOK: Yes. I love baking.
YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVEN'T SHARED WITH ANYONE: No one in "real life" knows about my thing with food.
HAVE A CRUSH: Not currently, no. Unless you count the so-called celebrity crushes.
WANT TO GET MARRIED: I dunno. Maybe. Not high on my list of priorities.
GET MOTION SICKNESS: Sometimes. I hate it.
THINK YOU'RE A HEALTH FREAK: No.
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: Most of the time.
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: Hell yeah!
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: Black. Originally blonde.
PERFORM (Dance, act, sing): Not too often. At school parties. (Played guitar and was in a play in the Christmas party at our school.)
COMPETE IN SPORTS: No.
COLOR: Black, white, silver, and blue. On some days, purple and red, too.
DAY: Tuesday and Saturday. I used to like Fridays, but the term changed and now I have a double lesson of Physics AND a Math lesson on Fridays at school, and I hate Math and Physics, so...
MONTH: November, 'cause it's my birthday, and June, 'cause it's the first month of the summer holidays.
MUSICAL ARTISTS: Ooh, there are many! Queen, Sex Pistols, Alice Cooper, Sisters of Mercy, Type O Negative, The Cure, Joy Division, Maija Vilkkumaa, Sonata Arctica, Nightwish, Marilyn Manson...
MUSICAL GENRE: Rock & metal. In some moods, classical.
SONG(S): Too many to be listed... Currently can't stop listening to Sonata Arctica's Draw Me.
MOVIE: The Lord of the Rings -trilogy. And Thirteen, Edward Scissorhands, Ocean's 11, Ocean's 12, and Interview With A Vampire.
TV SHOW: America's Next Top Model. They just started showing season 3 on Finnish tv. <3
MODEL: I love Elyse, from ANTM season 1. And Kate Moss is <3
SEASON: Fall is great. And summer I love, because I have two and a half months off school.
DRINK: Pepsi Max, unsweetened Earl Grey -tea and ice cold water.
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: I dunno. Depends on the feeling.
FAST OR RESTRICT: Hmm... Fast. It's much easier to say totally no,´having just a little and then stopping can turn out suprisingly hard.
REPUBLICAN, DEMOCRAT, OR THIRD PARTY: Democrat.
TEA, COFFEE, OR DIET POP: Don't drink coffee. Diet pop.
BOXERS OR BRIEFS: Briefs.
SPIT OF SWALLOW: Spit!
IN THE LAST DAY, HAVE YOU...
PURGED: In a way, yes.
EXCERCISED: No. (I will, today.)
HELPED SOMEONE? Umm.. Not really.
BOUGHT SOMETHING? Yes.
GOTTEN SICK? No.
GONE TO THE MOVIES? No. Rented two, though.
SAID 'i love you'?: No.
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: No.
TALKED TO AN EX?: No. (I don't even HAVE an ex.)
MISSED AN EX? Nope.
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? Yes.
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: Nope.
HUGGED SOMEONE?: Nope.
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND?: What friends? I have loads of people I know and can talk to about everyday meaningless stuff, but I consider none of them true friends trustworthy enough for me to open up.